Wednesday, September 21, 2011

Being a Sakshi (Witness) is Tough

Yesterday, I had been for a walk in my locality, Garodia Nagar, in Ghatkopar, Mumbai. I went to the Lion's Club Joggers park. It was very pleasant in the park.

Young Gujju ladies, looking like middle aged aunties, courtesy their behinds, gossiping away while making lazy rounds of the park, spoiling the silence of the atmosphere. On the bench, old uncles, discussing the plight of the world and the dangers to come, the sheer disappointment in their tone clearly evident, with traces of a superiority complex as they compared today's times to their days.

Some health freaks, making a leisurely garden walk a serious affair, more than the sweat, their twisted brows were distorting their face, as though they were there to vent out their anger, after a recent fight with their boss/wife.

Young couples on the benches in some shady corner, where somehow the light rays from the nearby lamp post don't reach, because some leaf or flower of a long branch manages to do its job. Some couples exchanging whispered conversations, some struggling to manage some physical contact, just a side hug if nothing else ;-) and yet some others shooting invisible missiles through the sides of their eyeballs, such strong resistance to even look at each other, as though it will leak out some signal of love! I actually felt like going to one such couple and telling them, "Guys, just chill, you never know till how long you will continue to get these moments, hatred destroys love, only love nurtures love."

The tiny tots toddling with excitement in a new found paradise like Alices in wonderland.

I wondered, is this being a 'Sakshi'? I shifted my awareness to my walk, the length of my strides, the movement of the balance of my body. Then to my breath, and thoughts. My pace reduced, i began getting lost in my thoughts. I just shrugged the thoughts and came back to my brisk walk. I realized being a Sakshi while in 100 % action was quite a challenge. Remembered Sri Sri's text on 'Rest in Activity and Activity in Rest'. Wondered, how does HE do it?

I made a few attempts to keep my awareness on the atmosphere, the people around, my walk, breath, thoughts and feelings and something deeper in me, all at the same time, like a parallel processor.

I failed miserably :-(

I need more practice.

Jai Gurudev

Monday, September 5, 2011

Who is the Teacher?

Since as early morning as 00:03, I have been getting SMS and FB messages and emails wishing me a Happy Teachers Day. Some praises about how well I have taught and how my teachings have made a difference in peoples' lives.

These messages set me thinking and I began wondering, "What and who did I teach?"

A chain of thoughts, like one wave after the other, like the gushing flow of a boisterous river, swept my mind. Images of my various teachers starting from my mother, my Std 3 school teacher, sports teachers, dad, my cousins, my uncles and aunts, neighbors, friends with whom I used to play...etc etc. Very soon my mind was congested with images in a fraction of second, similar to how the silver lined clouds of various shapes make the sky look like a multiple exposed screen when lightning strikes supplemented with sound effects of thunder.

Art of Living teachers, my mentors, college guides ..they all came. A sudden realization came the next moment. My so called 'students', who agreed to listen to and receive from me, without whom I would not be called a teacher. Gratitude welled up, various masterstrokes of HIS grace rose the love smeared energy from my heart chakra upward through the throat and further up.

Awareness dawned...

and the answer that came within a few seconds as clear as a crystal was 'NOTHING & NOBODY'. I have taught nothing and to nobody. I became blank and blissed out. Doership had completely dropped and I was re-connected to the emptiness that I am, have been and will continue to BE.

The farmer only provides the earth, water, manure and heat to the seed. The SEED sprouts.

The cook puts the water in a vessel on the heater, the WATER boils.

Someone puts the switch on, ELECTRICITY flows.

You scratch the card, the NUMBER emerges.

Two beings of the opposite sex mate, a new LIFE is born.

The leader inspires, PEOPLE decide to follow.

The master shows the way, the DISCIPLE decides to walk on the path.

A student reads a book, UNDERSTANDING happens.

A painter mixes two or more colors, a new COLOR emerges.

A singer stimulates his vocal chords, MUSIC flows.

We breathe, LIFE continues.

Man proposes, GOD disposes.

Nature is pregnant with knowledge and an infinite organizing potential. Like the designs exist in the kaleidoscope, you just need to move it a bit to create a new pattern, the teacher does just that.

The Guru does not even give you knowledge, he just heightens your awareness. -- H. H. Sri Sri Ravi Shankar.

Gratitude and Love

Jai Gurudev